Dear Internet,
Today begins the new chapter of
my life. Although it is not graduation day yet, but I declare this day as the
first of my adulting 101. I will be going to Manila next week and I want to
start fresh, for my fitness journey, for my spiritual journey, and more importantly,
to the main reason why I will be gone for half a year, to review for my board
exam in chemical engineering. I certainly am going to miss my boyfriend for so
long, but I hope someday he will visit me there. I have not yet finished packing
my things but I am trying to organize my path in my thoughts. Since I think
that vlogging might be saturated and even though I want to start YouTube, I figured
that the best social media getaway for me, to manage my thoughts is through
blogging. Well, I hope that I can continue doing this, and I hope that the
picture I got in my mind would be realistic when I get there. Just like,
removing my habit of being a night owl, and probably shifting to a morning
person. It is so hard but I will try my best to adjust. Today, I am doing that
since I did not sleep, and we will have a graduation practice in less than five
hours, while simultaneously celebrating my cousin’s baptism, in which my
boyfriend would be a godfather. I hope everything will turn out great and I
hope that my new life chapter would be awesome.
The one problem, though, that I
have is how I would bring all the books in Manila, since they are way too many
to handle, and I do not want to exceed the 20 kg limit for my flight. I lowkey
want to withdraw some parts of my money in the investment that I have in the
stock market but I think it would be a bad idea in the long run. I just really,
really want to have an iPad so that it would be handy and very much practical. Where
can I get this huge amount of money to buy one? Why don’t I have a Latin honor
so that I could afford one, myself? Sometimes I get filled with regrets over
why I did not take my College years seriously. I feel like I could do it if I
tried my best. I want to change that thing in me and maybe prove myself
deserving of all that in this review phase that I will be facing soon. Would I
be good? Will I make it? Can I handle the pressure? Can I handle the life in Manila?
I hope yes. Because, you know, I am really excited to live an independent life.
Somewhere far away from home so that I can start all over again. All I need is
new environment since I have been living in an isolated life for almost 22
years already. This will be my first time and I am not throwing away my shot.
Anyways, I hope that I can answer
all my questions positively and I hope that everything will turn out fine, by
the grace of God.
Just E
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