The Value of Sharing

Bring what we have even when it seems insignificant.

“Jesus then took the loaves, gave thanks,and distributed to those who were seated as much as they wanted. He did the same with the fish.” -John 6:11

Christ’s disciples had little use for the boy’s sparse lunch of five loaves and two fishes. But when it was surrendered, Jesus increased it and fed thousands of hungry people!

Reflection:

It really is so nice and fulfilling to be able to share with people, even little things matter. Like giving up old clothes that you seldom or do not use anymore. Might as well give it to another home where it is much needed, and useful. Other people might see it as a luxury. It really is good to do that, because sharing to other people opens up the heart. 

What have you been holding back from God?

The one that is holding me back to God is lust. Lust for the worldly things. It really is so hard for me to get back to my good habits and have my daily spiritual food when I so desire things such as being with my boyfriend, the thoughts of getting married, planning for the future, and being preoccupied with chores at home. Laziness. I have been so lazy that I do not know what things to prioritize anymore. Being stuck with household chores and watching nonsense Youtube videos and movies after being tired of cleaning. I do not have a job yet. I got a wretched sleeping habit, and I feel like a mess. I just want to be unchained of all the evil that is holding me back. 

 Why is it difficult to bring that area of your life to Him.

I got a hard time adjusting my sleeping habit when I get used to my norm. But we all know that the hard part is getting started and I am still adjusting to when I will start to wake up early, and then sleep early at night. Usually, I get really grumpy waking up when I only have 3 hours of sleep to start with. It is so tiring, and I always say that I will do it tomorrow, and then a lot of tomorrows ended with me not having any progress. It surely is difficult but I will bear with these hard things today so that I can have a productive life spiritually, emotionally, and physically.

Prayer.

Most gracious God, my Lord and my Father, You are the best, and You are my redeemer, as You are my creator and the director of my life. Lord, I know that You know that it is really difficult for me. It is so difficult for me to adjust to my sleeping habits. It is really difficult for me to contain my lust for life. Thoughts such as getting married, having a job that I really want without consulting You. I wanted things as I picture it to be, when it should be You, Lord, that is the sailor of my life. I have been so stubborn to You, my Father, that I get so preoccupied with nonsense random stuff that I could not talk to You anymore. I prioritized the precious time that You gave me to watch some nonsense series and Youtube videos, where I get nothing but short-term happiness. I feel like such a mess, Oh Lord. Despite my bad behavior lately, You still have this open arms to accept me. Even though You know my mistakes, the things that I do, You still gave me a chance, because You let me speak to You and You hear me, my God, and I cannot thank You enough for being a good, good, Father to me. To your lost little child. I thank You that You continually give me food to eat, a warm home, family, and other extra things You gave just for me. I love you so much, Lord. It has been a very long time that I got to pray and talk to You and I really am missing this feeling of intimacy to You, my God. Lord, I pray that You hear my requests, Father God. I really want to land a temporary job for the mean time that I am waiting for the item for teaching. And I want it to be meaningful in Your kingdom. I do not know where exactly You will place me, Lord, but I pray, Father, that You will give me a job and I can spread the good news to those people. Also Lord, I pray that You unchain me from the evil desires that I have. I pray you give me strength as I start this day to be productive. Please sustain me Lord, for this day that I do the tasks assigned to me. I am weak, Father God. I lack sleep, but please do guide me Lord. I also pray Father, that my boyfriend will have his own dgroup by now and I pray You will save him father, as well as his family. I pray that the person my dgroup leader asked to be my boyfriend’s discipler already texted him and that he will willingly accept. Because I pray Lord, that whenever I get married, You will be the center of our relationship, because that is what’s important, Father God. That we will join You there in the eternal kingdom, and be saved and enjoy the presence of You, my Lord. With all the angels in heaven. And in the second coming of Jesus. I pray also that You will touch the hearts of my family and relatives, that I may be able to disciple them in the future. Whenever You think I am ready, Lord. Sustain me, Father. I pray that You save them also, Lord God. And help me to be a better and productive person. I always look forward, Father God, in seeing You, and telling me, “Well done, my good and faithful servant.” Please unchain me from evil, Oh God. Do help me please. These all I ask for today, oh Lord God. In the name of Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior. Thank you Lord, and Amen.